I guess it was more fun this time?
I actually really don't know what to say because while I was actually able to play the notes I felt like I was really lagging behind and was completely uncomfortable. It might have just been the air of relaxation in the place where as I had come prepared to do work.
Not to be rude or anything but when Freddie was trying to talk or to explain something Bobby couldn't put down the guitar so that we could hear what was being said, and Freddie didn't have the heart to flat out tell Bobby to cut the shit and shut his guitar off.
I don't know. I mean, I guess playing with a band is cool and all, being able to play my instrument is nice but again, I'm spending 15-20 minutes figuring everything out only to hear Ellen correct me every other note. I don't mind her correcting me at all, what bothers me is that I am the one being corrected. It's not that I think I am so good, it's that I am the only one who is so bad.
Maybe I'm looking at this the wrong way. Freddie is a nice guy and all, but did we really have to do another cover of Journey's Don't Stop Believing? I hate that fucking song to begin with, and now I have to sit there uncomfortably trying to figure out how to play it while Bobby wails that stupid guitar of his in my ears. I just don't have the heart to yell at the kid. I know no one really says it but I do feel like I'm slowing them down and feel like this is not the workshop for me but I might as well just stick with it. I mean, if Luke thinks it's right and I don't have the balls to just say I don't want to be there then I guess I'm stuck.
Wow, this is starting to sound like a rant. I don't think I ever meant for it to go like this. I just don't really feel like we are doing anything. I'm sure Freddie is trying his best but to teach a bunch of kids Ska in minimal time and the kids aren't all trained musicians, just seems like we're going to be playing a variation on the same song that everyone and their mother has covered. I actually feel like I would get more out of any of the other workshops but it seems too late now.
I don't, however want to come off as rude or whiny or even childish. It's not my intention to complain, though I feel that my thoughts about the workshop should be voiced. Next time I hope there is a writing workshop. I like to play my bass but I don't like to spend 3 weeks feeling like the most brainless person in the room. It's not fun dreading Tuesdays and Fridays.
1) I hate the Journey song too. But, ya know, it's still fun to play it. But I do really hate that song completely. I hate that band with a passion.
ReplyDelete2) Why don't you tell Bobby to turn his guitar down so you can hear what is going on?
3) One of the reasons Message of Love was successful is you showed initiative and leadership. Why don't you do that now?
4) You're far from the most brainless person in the room. But if you bring a defeated attitude to the situation, if you approach it as a victim, then you'll certainly feel like you're brainless. So, don't think of this as a music workshop, because it isn't that for you. It is a workshop about conquering your own tendencies towards sliding down into your own personal cesspool. The drawing stuff we've been doing is the same thing.
These are the sorts of things which will kill you in college and the real world. There is a stretch of life approaching you where you actually have less options to do what you love than you think, and success is determined by doing the crap which simply must be done.